i have a very long list of livelihood-related things that i want to spend time on. and yet, lately, i haven’t.

sadly, i have been giving myself grief for this. either i tell myself that i’m horribly lazy and unmotivated or else i tell myself that clearly there is something in the way and what on earth is wrong with me that i don’t want to figure out what it is and work through it.

what have i been doing instead? i’ve been creating a style lookbook, writing cards/letters, eating ice cream, watching shows on netflix, and spending time by the pool.

do you know what i just realized? of course this is what i’m doing. it’s hot here! most of the things i want to do involve time at the computer and it’s just too hot for me to do my best work.

sheesh. i think the heat is sapping my brain.

on the up side, i bought myself an ice cream cake. it came up in a conversation and sounded really good and i said, “i should buy one!” that’s normally the sort of thing i would say and then dismiss. an ice cream cake seems special – something to buy for other people, not just for me. then, i decided that was actually the perfect reason to buy it – it would be a good way of showing myself that i am special too. it’s very tasty! if you live nearby, there’s still some in the freezer.